I just had to write a few things that are on my mind today. This past weekend we cleaned out our storage unit (YUCK!) and found our MIA video camera! So we spent Sunday afternoon and Monday night viewing our new found treasures! I cannot tell you how much fun that was and our kids laughed so hard at all the funny stuff they did when they were babies! I found myself so emotional watching my kids as babies. Those who know me well know that I love nothing more than babies! I wanted so bad to be able to jump through the tv and through time just to hold and kiss my babies again. I haven't been able to get it out of my mind at honestly how scary fast time goes by! It seems like yesterday I was a kid myself. When I was 17 I got my patriarchal blessing and before I went to get it I remember thinking I hope it will tell me that I will be a Mother because I want nothing more in life than to have kids. Needless to say the blessing told me I would become a mother to sons and daughters alike. Well I don't have daughters but I have sons and a daughter who knows maybe one will slip in before I get too old! Anyway all I can do is think about my kids and those videos. If there is one thing that I could go back and change in my life it would be to refuse to work and spend every waking moment I had holding, kissing, loving, and playing with my babies! So you stay at home moms feel lucky that you have the opportunity to stay at home with your children even though I am sure at times you wish you could be somewhere else! I have no idea why I can't seem to get those videos out of my head but I really can't believe that my kids are 11, 8 , and 6 all ready and that I didn't get to spend all day everyday with them as they are growing! Now they talk back, fight, and they are too busy for mom to hold them and kiss them, but I love them more than anything and I am so blessed to be a Mother! Yes I am rambling and at this moment tears are falling down my face but I just had to write what I was feeling!